So I’m chatting with this racist the other day and he goes “you can’t call me racist, just because I am white. That’s racist”.
And I was like, “nah bro, it was because you said some racist things”.
But then he called his mate over “this is Joel the white knight” he says.
So now I knew that I was in trouble. Joel gave me a good talking to about how aggressive it is to call someone a racist. “That’s some scary stuff coming from your keyboard” he said. “I didn’t see any racism,” he told me, “and my wife is a person of colour”.
So everyone knows that if you have a black friend or if your wife is a person of colour then you can’t be a racist. Like how captain cook kidnapped and raped Indigenous children. That wasn’t racist.
So I’m a bit of a numbers guy. I count the likes on comments to see where I stand in the court of public opinion. And I will be honest, I was definitely in the wrong. I learned my lesson about calling people racist. Trust me my friends. You don’t want to do it.
Adam Goodes can attest. Remember him. He got booed for years after doing it. Better to be a racist than to call someone a racist I reckon.
We don’t seem to learn though do we. Suckers for punishment I guess.
Yumi Stynes can attest. Remember her. When KAK told us that Indigenous people didn’t deserve any justice because their communities had crime. “You’re sounding quite racist,” said Yumi. Once again the court decided in favour of the offending person, KAK. You can’t just call people racist you see. This is the lesson. It is worse to call someone a racist than it is to be a racist.
But maybe beyond the court of social opinion, maybe the actual courts could hold justice for all? In 1991 a royal commission into Aboriginal deaths in custody published their report. During the next 29 years there would be over 400 more Aboriginal deaths in custody. There would also be zero justice for families of the deceased. Over 400 times the government would tell Indigenous Australians that there is no justice to be had for you.
When I saw the murder of George Floyd I wept. This was the face of my Father, my Brothers, my Uncles, my Cousins. This was a gentle face. And the message was clear. We can kill you and yours and society does not have the mechanisms for you to seek justice. Besides, “the deceased had a criminal record and does not deserve to be treated like a human”. An Australian Senator told me this last week. Well not directly, but a lot of my friends told me that she said it.
When I was in high school a group of three older boys beat and kicked me into submission. I was a cheeky young boy, and I hadn’t yet learned my place. Three of my best friends watched me take that beating. I didn’t think anything of that until years later when I told my father about it. “Some people just won’t have your back,” he said. That was another really important lesson.
It has been two years since my battle with the white knight. And I know the energy that battle took from me. I am not yet fully recovered. But I promised myself that when my friends are being kicked and beaten I would step in. I told myself that I would not be a coward.
And I am terrified. Because I tell myself that I don’t care what any of you think but that is a lie. I say that I don’t care that you don’t have my back. I say that I don’t need your help. I am a god among men. A titan. I am Tāwhirimatea himself and I bear the winds of change at my back. And I rage and I howl to the heavens for justice. Knowing that I am alone, and scared, and that I will be beaten and kicked again.
But what kind of man am I that does not stand beside his friends. So even though I am not a god or a titan, even though I am scarred and old and my back is broken, I lend my voice to the others.
Because I don’t know my place yet. Why don’t you tell me.